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Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Intersection Has A Heartbeat


Might be reviving the Intersection again, as Sadie and I are returning to Foothills Bakery regularly on Tuesdays and Fridays (this was yesterday, but isn't dissimilar to today's weather).

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Saturday, February 06, 2016

#throwbackthursaturday

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In many ways, Bailey is so reminiscent of Kayla.

ntodd

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Friday, February 05, 2016

Kaffeeklatsch


The Dogz greet Sonora during morning pee, and some felines refuse to be left out. Murphy missed the party, but left a message.

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Wednesday, February 03, 2016

I Stepped In It


Thanks, Bailey, for keeping Kayla's tradition of pooping on our paths alive.

ntodd

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Saturday, January 30, 2016

Going On A Dopamine Hunt


We decided to get everybody out of the house for a walk in Milton's Town Forest.


Bailey found a gajillion new smells.


Ericka found a grizzly bear.


Sadie carried her baby safely across a bridge.


Sam the Photobomber got photobombed.


Goofball quotient began to rise, so we headed back.


Thus Bailey went into herding mode.


Dopamine Achievement unlocked!


Warm at home.

ntodd

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Friday, January 29, 2016

Grand Central


One day I hope to capture wildlife. But at least we have bunches of cats.

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Lost In The Woods


I'm not pleased with the new placement of this camera by our driveway, but I did spot some strange creatures meandering to school.

ntodd

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Thursday, January 28, 2016

#throwbackthursday


149 weeks ago.

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Wednesday, January 27, 2016

A Boy And His Dogs


Who doesn't enjoy a romp in the woods with The Pack?

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Sunday, January 24, 2016

Guest Post: Monkey Brain Is A Dick

I think we have a lost generation of women who are diagnosed with ADHD later in life, who have had to manage the condition on their own and deal with it on their own for the majority of their lives. The diagnosis is a blessing and a curse: it’s a great relief, but they wonder what could have been different if they had only known.

- Michelle Frank, a clinical psychologist specializing in ADHD

In May of 2015, at age 41, I was diagnosed with ADHD. And I do wonder what my life would have been like had I been diagnosed as early as my son, Sam.

The coping mechanisms I’ve developed over my whole life, organized and fairly “high-functioning”, according to my doctor, masked the hallmark symptoms of ADHD. Inwardly, though, I was in constant destructive self-talk mode. For as long as I can remember, my days ended with recollections of what I’d not accomplished, or how I’d interrupted someone and/or said something stupid, conversations in which I’d completely blanked on what I was saying mid-sentence. I felt stupid and wrong and bad all of the time. I blamed myself for everything. (Low self-esteem? CHECK.)

Because no parent, teacher, doctor is trained to see girls'/women's symptoms as ADHD (the medical establishment emphasizes boys' hyperactivity symptoms and because girls are conditioned by society to conform and adapt), I suffered in silence, shaming myself to be more organized, hold my tongue, not procrastinate and be more responsible, so it would be get better.

An outside referral or evaluation recommendation would never materialize for me. Instead, I was able to put the pieces together. In 2014, after I began to suspect it, did some research, and talked with my doctor about a referral. The “drug-seeking” stigma of ADHD creates an additional barrier between primary care physicians and specialists. So, I was referred to a nurse (not trained or specialized in ADHD) who would determine whether I could receive a referral to an ADHD specialist.

A diagnosis would elude me for another year, ironically:

"hi, my doc gave me the number for the ADHD screening person, and i've lost it, can you give it to me again?" #nailedit
ericka @ergVT · 11:26 AM - 23 Jul 2014

(The referral nurse never returned my call, by the way.)

The social stigma of ADHD is another barrier to sharing my experience. I am fearful to admit to people I have it. I’ve not told my boss. I’ve told my mom and a few friends. That’s it. Most people don’t even know. I think more people on Twitter know than IRL.

I've heard that it’s a made up disorder; it’s the pharmaceutical industry’s ploy to drug us; that it’s a public school failure. Can you imagine telling a person with epilepsy that?

ADHD is a neurological disorder. Simply put, there is a lack of dopamine received by my brain. There are defects in “dopamine transporters” and the transporters take up too much dopamine before it can be passed from one brain cell to another. 

People with ADHD cannot trust their perceptions - executive functions like working memory, flexibility, metacognition, and sustained attention are impaired – and miscommunication will often trigger a negative internal response. We call this “Monkey Brain” in our household.

Case in point, this morning: I refilled my coffee, put the coffee pot back and Todd walked into the kitchen to do the same.

Todd: Did you get enough coffee?

Monkey Brain: What did you do wrong? Did you take all the coffee? What is going on? Why is he mad?

Me: I left you enough for you to have a cup!

Todd: *blink blink* I know. Did. You. Get. Enough. Coffee?

Me: I see what just happened there. I didn't hear your question; I thought I did something wrong. Felt bad. Then guilty. Monkey brain is a dick.

Ericka

January 24, 2016 in Family Life, Monkey Brain, Soaking In Patriarchy | Permalink | Comments (3)

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Daddy Time


Fam left me alone for a few hours, so the animals and I chilled in the woods. Don't begrudge me my stogie, jerks.

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Thursday, January 21, 2016

#throwbackthursday


Sigh...The Pack's previous incarnation.

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New Friends


Because there's really no such thing as too many videos of The New Pack doing pack things.

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Tuesday, January 19, 2016

It's Like Those Weather Rocks


If it's white, it's snowing.

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Monday, January 18, 2016

Black Cat, White Snow


I admit it will be quite some time before I tire of watching the animals on our secret cameras.  Just saw Fergus in the basement, and now he's heading toward The Meadow in this weather?  Doofus.

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Snowdogs


Mexico shows new sister Bailey Bee the School Path.

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January 18, 2016 in Family Life | Permalink | Comments (0)

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Sunday, January 17, 2016

Babe In The Woods


Mexico meets Bailey Bee (nee Babe), a rescue from Texas.


The Old Boy approves.


"There are lots of great places to smell, and gross things to eat out here, New Sister."


Sadie was in charge of BB's cow toy.


"What fresh hell is this?"


"Here kitty, kitty, kitty!"


"You assholes."

ntodd

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Friday, January 15, 2016

Wildlife


Interloper PJ chases after Zoey at about 2am.  One day I might catch something other than cats, dogs, or kids.

ntodd

PS--I've moved the cameras, just to keep the kids guessing, and hopefully to capture new shit.

January 15, 2016 in Family Life | Permalink | Comments (0)

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Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Speaking Of Changes

The Era of NTodd As SAHD is waning.  

Last week I told our friends that I'd be no longer available to watch their kids because Bog Road Communications has become a significantly larger venture than originally imagined.  We've been so successful getting some testbed sites operational that we're now on tap to do not only more network deployment, but to take over a variety of other aspects of the energy monitoring/control push that involves several--and potentially scores--of clients.

Ironically, this also means WE are now in need of external childcare options, which thankfully appear to have solidified rather quickly.  Samuel has been desperately begging us to send him to the Y's after school program since his best friend attends, and he got his wish this week.  Next week, Sadie will be starting additional pre-school time at another facility in a neighboring town.

After 6 years of doing this "unemployed" gig (yeah, it's a fucking real occupation, but you know), it's a bit weird and daunting to think about a life without eleventy billion dropoffs, pickups, and fights over snacks and toys.  I admit to being a bit shocked by just how this opportunity has exploded, particularly since I wasn't even considering such a change until Sadie started kindergarten in another year and a half.

And it's all good.

ntodd

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Sunday, January 10, 2016

Swirly Rain


No cats sighted for a while, just lots of blowing rain.

ntodd

January 10, 2016 in Family Life | Permalink | Comments (0)